Are you willing to see yourself as broken?
Are you willing to see yourself as broken? I know this may sound backwards and a little odd, but stick with me. Why would it benefit you to see yourself as broken? Wouldn’t it be better to imagine yourself as a whole, complete human being? From my experience the answer to that question is a hard no.
I was sitting in church one week when the realization hit me: it doesn’t serve me to hold onto my pride of not being broken. It is okay to be broken. In fact, aren’t we all a little broken? Don’t we all come from a past with some broken things, feelings and situations in it?
What I came to understand as truth in that moment is that only when you are willing to see yourself as broken are you able to be restored to wholeness and move forward.
You have to make peace with your past and present to move forward into your future. You cannot continue sweeping brokenness under the rug, hoping it will go away, because it won’t. You will keep tripping over it every time you try to move forward in your life.
Our scars are nothing to be ashamed over, we all have them, let’s be honest here, but you have to give them attention in order for them to heal. Do yourself a favor and stop trying so hard to keep it all together, because you know what is so beautiful about something broken? It can be put back together. It can be made whole again.
There is a traditional Japanese artform called Kintsugi, where broken objects are repaired with precious metals such as liquid gold, silver or lacquer dusted with powdered gold. Every repaired piece is unique and exquisitely enhanced by the randomness of the breaks and the irregular patterns formed with the use of the metals. You see my point here? Something broken can be made whole and at the same token be made into something even more beautiful and extraordinary than it already was.
I am going to end this post by encouraging you to once again look at your past and present and truly let go of trying to see yourself as without scars and brokenness. Where you’ve come from is part of who you are. By acknowledging your brokenness, your pain, your hurt, your mistakes, you can let it go and finally move forward. You can finally stop letting your past define your future.
If you try to hide your scars they will keep rearing their ugly heads every time you try to make any moves toward a better life. Face them, deal with them, let them heal, move on, move forward, towards a better you and a much brighter future.